words move me...

For Alvin...

2009-09-04T02:44:00.000-07:00

whenever you hold my hand,
i know that i'm safe from harm,
i know my heart is home,
i know i'm where i should be in this world,
i know i'm yours.

whenever you hold my hand,
i know it's true
that true love does withstand
every test, every trial,
true love braves every storm,
true love lives for all time.

whenever you hold my hand,
i see the future so clear,
no more worries or fear,
i see days always leading to good tomorrows,
i see me and you.

whenever you hold my hand,
i know for sure,
to hell with what others think or say,
love escapes them anyway,
i know this is more real than they,
i know this love is for always.

this is love,
this is home,
this is us.
i know.
your hand holding mine tells me so.

happy birthday, love.
090909

Farewell to the King!

2009-06-26T02:19:00.000-07:00

He died today, after going into cardiac arrest, at the age of 50.

Time described Michael Jackson as "the hottest single phenomenon since Elvis Presley."

He has supported more than thirty charities with proceeds from his concerts, more than any other celebrity or entertainer in the world. He has received numerous awards for his songs and albums, and his generosity. His music has changed the world. He has gone too soon, but his music will live on.

The world will miss the King of Pop. We love you, Michael.

Crazy.

2008-12-22T07:26:00.000-08:00

Driving.
Thinking.
Driving me crazy.
Crazy,
Remembering,
Every little thing.
Kissing.
Needing.
Heavy breathing.
Touching.
Wanting.
Dangerously playing
with fire.
Desire.
Walk the wire.
Cross the line.
I don't mind.

Do you?

Ssh..

2008-12-22T07:22:00.000-08:00

Stolen kisses,
No one knows,
Hiding in the shadows.
Lips entwined,
though he's not mine,
we cross the line.
Burning need
we choose to heed.
Not love,
Just heat
and the thrill of it.
Reasoning gone,
Sensations have won,
The fire has begun.
No undoing this,
A secret bliss
that started with a kiss.

Thankful.

2008-11-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

Thank you...
For the soft gaze when you look at me,
The sweet smile you give me,
The touch that's all mine,
The love that's divine.
For the warmth of your hand holding mine,
fingers tightly entwined,
Your kiss that weakens each sense,
Each touch that brings suspense.
Each caress that's oh so tender
When we make love in total surrender,
Each breath, each gasp, each whisper,
as our bodies move together.
For the patience and understanding,
Even when this girl gets unnerving!
For the way you know me inside out,
For believing in me without a doubt.
For being my anchor and all,
The net to catch my fall,
My wings to touch the sky,
The strength that keeps me high.
For being my one true love,
My biggest grace from above,
Dearest sweetheart, ever faithful,
To you I will always be grateful.

Thank you...
For your heart and soul,
Your very all.
Now and always rest assured,
I am yours. I am yours.

Lost.

2008-10-24T01:36:00.000-07:00

Days are so long,
like an endless song
with an unfamiliar tune,
I don't know the words,
I don't know anymore.
Nights are dreary,
less rested, more weary,
it's a tiring game
of trying again,
I don't know anymore.
Used to be all rainbows,
no room for sorrow,
has the lovebird flown
and left us all alone?
I don't know anymore.
Shadows where there once was a man
standing tall beside his woman,
empty space, cold embrace,
we've lost our way.
I don't know anymore.

To love again...

2008-10-01T00:46:00.000-07:00

Here we are, hand in hand,
We thought all this had come to an end,
But here we are taking a stand,
choosing to love again...
Looks like we made it.

Here you are holding me like this,
And I'm feeling that familiar kiss,
All the sensations I've so badly missed,
No, I'm not dreaming all this...
Looks like we made it.

No more storms beating us down,
no more barriers all around,
Finally our love is on solid ground,
The path to each other is once again found...
And we've made it.

Welcome back love, and all its glory,
let go of the past, and all its story,
Here you are now, holding me, permanently,
Start anew, love again, all our lives - you and me...
We made it.

Sa hintayan.

2008-08-31T07:22:00.000-07:00

Heto...
nagbibilang ng bituin,
nangangarap ng gising,
kailan ba sasabihin
mamahalin nang muli?
Lito...
Kakaisip sa iyo,
ilang araw nang ganito,
awang-awa na sa puso,
gustong gusto nang sumuko.

Kailan ba malalaman
kung pwede nang magmahalan?
Ano ba ang kapalaran?
Luluha na naman ba sa ulan?

Lungkot...
hindi na ba talaga matatapos?
Kailan makakawala sa gapos?
Ayoko na ng oras na limos,
Ayoko na ng pag-ibig na kapos.
Limot...
Kung puwede lang kitang talikuran,
Kung kaya lang kitang kalimutan,
Di na sana ako mahihirapan,
naghihintay ng walang katapusan.

Kailan ba darating sa akin
ang inaasam na pagtingin?
Nababaliw na ng palihim
hangga't di mo pa sabihing...

Ako...
Sa piling ko na ika'y tatakbo,
bibitiw na sa lahat ng tinatago,
pag-ibig di na magbabago,
hanggang sa huling sandali ay ako...

Ako na.
Ako nang muli.
Ako na lang lagi.

Naiinip...
Pwede namang iwanang tuluyan,
at di na umasang magkabalikan,
pero pangako mo'y di maalis sa isipan,
sabi mo ako'y maghintay lang, konti na lang...

At ako na.
Ako nang muli.
Ako na lagi.

Kailan?

Again.

2008-08-27T03:23:00.000-07:00

Here you are again,
Looking at me,
Holding my hand,
Kissing me like long ago,
In a bliss.
Wake me please.
Is it just a dream?
Are you really here?
So terrified to open my eyes.
Don’t fade into the twilight.
Here it is again,
The feeling that just never ends,
When our bodies touch,
When there’s no need for words,
Just sighs,
And smiles,
And those familiar incoherent sounds.
You love me, did I hear you right?
I love you, too.
Lord, don’t end this night.
Please, let this be forever.
I’ve cried so many endless rivers.
Make it stop now.
Don’t let go.
Not again, not ever.
Lift me from the embers.
Save me from the sorrow.
Love me ‘til tomorrow…
Until for always.

SOS

2008-08-10T18:50:00.000-07:00

Someone to open the windows of my heart
and let the beautiful sunshine in,
Someone to open the door and guide me outside
to places that I have never been.

Someone to look straight into my eyes
and see what other people never see,
Someone to dry my tears and make me smile,
and let me be the person I want to be.

Someone to hold my hand while we walk,
and laugh heartily at my sills antics,
Someone to listen when I want to talk,
and whisper words all sweet and romantic.

Someone to fight with a few times in our life,
and we'll not talk for several days,
then look forward to all the making up,
and oh, he'll make up for it in so many ways.

Someone who'll proudly say he's with me
even if I'm not wearing my Sunday best,
someone who'll miss me every minute of every day,
think of me when he wakes up until he rests.

Someone who'll believe in my dreams and ideas,
and who'll stand by me when things are bad,
To be my loyal friend, an ally, a confidante,
to be the best lover I've ever had.

Someone who'll say my name like it's the most precious word,
and he'd never even picture a future apart,
Lord, send me this someone I know is out there,
that someone to mend my broken heart.

Just believe.

2008-08-10T18:43:00.000-07:00

I think of times we used to share,
laughing and crying together,
The things we did, the risks we dared,
We thought would last forever.

The world was ours, on top and in-love,
Two people deeply enamored are we,
We planned tomorrows we knew we had,
Painted the future we knew was destiny.

But the tides had changed, the scene anew,
the world just turned awry.
The seasons had passed, has love gone too?
The lovely tale of you and I.

No. Love is still alive.

Life brings us tests to check our strength,
do we believe that love is for always?
If we keep our faith in what we had,
then everything soon would fall into place.

I believe in you, I believe in us,
in the power of love I believe.
Throw away all doubts, in each other let's trust,
Don't give up the fight and just leave.

It'll guide us through, our love, you'll see,
If we hold on to each other real tight.
Soon the trials will be over, it'll just be you and me,
loving more than ever, with all our might.

Worth the fight and worth the wait,
Our love is stronger than we.
Nothing can change what's written by fate,
You and I, my love, are meant to be.

There can be miracles
when you believe.

come back...

2008-08-06T02:38:00.000-07:00

i see you
your gaze on me
eyes full of love
that smile
radiating with warmth
embraces me...

i hear you
your voice soft and tender
each word
each whisper
like a sweet caress
holding me...

i feel you
your fingers on my skin
sending shivers down my spine
that familiar touch
kneading my very soul
thrilling me...

i taste you
your lips I know so well
kisses of languid longing
skin and souls uniting
bodies in total surrender
weakening me...

wake me.
i am dreaming.
i reach out
grasping cold emptiness.
i am all alone.
he is gone.

s'il vous plait etre le mien

2008-08-06T01:50:00.000-07:00

Two cards left to play,
Two chances to make it right,
Lord help me find the way,
Help me find the perfect time.
The night embraces me each day,
Cold, long shadows in the dark,
Ever frightening, ever dreary,
Playing with my battered heart.
Peace is elusive, I cannot rest,
My mind in a scattered mess,
Finding every glimmer of hope,
Shunning all that put me to the test.
I will not falter, I will not fall,
A fool in-love ready to risk it all,
To find a ray of light at the bend,
To know how my story will end.
Pray my destiny meets good luck,
Pray that fate will be kind this time,
My last two turns to play the game,
Love, please let victory be mine.
About to reveal my last two cards, the final bet,
To love, to forever, to all that is left,
My heart in my hands, dignity in tatters,
Struggling to save what really matters.
Holding on to hope, grasping faith so tight,
Pushing against the tide with all my might,
Strength, do not leave me alone in this feat,
Heart, do not waver and tremble in defeat.
The crowd may shout for me to lose,
To throw all to the wind and turn my back,
The judges in this game may take his side,
But to the call of true love I shall abide.
I am down to my last two turns,
I may win or I may lose, only God can decide,
But as I lay down my cards, I lay down my heart,
No pride left, I give my all to the fight.
Last two chances to win back life,
Last two cards left for me to play,
Pray that forever will win in the end,
Pray what once was lost may find its way.
Pray love, in the end, will conquer all,
Pray faith in true love will never fall,
Pray the moon is right and the stars will align,
Pray at war’s end, my man will be mine.